The Awesome Blogger Award

The sweet soul I introduced before, lifeonplanetearth2017, nominated me for yet another blogger award and I am so happy!!!

NOW FOR THE RULES:

  • Thank the person who nominated you
  • Tag it under #awesomebloggeraward in the Reader
  • Answer the questions your nominator gave you
  • Nominate at least 5 awesome bloggers
  • Give your nominees 10 new questions
  • Let your nominees know they have been nominated

Answers:

  • If you are granted one wish, what would you wish for?
    • I would wish for a free college education. I just looked at my financial aid one more time along with my loans, and oh boy. Also, I would wish for a window seat in my dorm room so I could read against the window.
  • Who/what has inspired you the most?
    •  I wouldn’t say a single person or event inspires me, over time it has been a tiny bit of everything that has inspired me to what I want to do in life.
  • What is your daily mantra?
    • “I honor my spirit and trust my vibes” or “with change comes opportunity”
  • What do you like the most about yourself?
    • What I like the most about myself is my ability to not give in to peer pressure. I know what I am comfortable and not comfortable with.
  • What do you do when you want to relax yourself?
    • When I want to relax, I normally go in my room or somewhere by myself. I like to have candles lit as well, maybe read or write depending on my mood.
  • One song that describes your life right now.
  • What do you fear the most?
    • If I am going to be honest, death scares me the most, along with natural disasters.
  • What do you think is the best thing that could happen to you right now?
    • If I was given lots of money or a cat (I really want a cat)
  • How do you describe yourself?
    • I would like to think I am a kind person, who tries to balance everything, but I am not perfect. I would say I am a mix of bubbly and shy almost.
  • If you could live the rest of your life in an anime, or a movie what would it be and why?
    • Dragon Ball Z for an anime! My boyfriend got me involved with the series and I have learned to love/appreciate it. Plus the characters are pretty bada**! As for a movie, I would love to live in the world of Brother Bear. That is my absolute favorite Disney movie.

I Nominate:

My Questions:

  1. How would you describe yourself?
  2. Coffee, tea, or water and why?
  3. Favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
  4. What movie or TV show can you watch over and over?
  5. What do you value most in life?
  6. What interests you?
  7. Why do you continue to blog?
  8. Favorite food?
  9. Unusual fact about you?
  10. If you could meet one celebrity,who would it be?

Can’t wait to see your responses! 🙂

“What are your Demons?”

Publishing your inner thoughts for other eyes to examine, pick apart, or ridicule is simply gut wrenching. It’s an inevitable feeling of crippling anxiety entangled with endless unwanted thoughts. Clicking that blue “publish” button on the top right corner of the dimly lit screen is a moment of sincere dread. Turning in your fresh, vulnerable article to the editor is utterly daunting.

 

Am I going to be heard?

“Are my words going to be appreciated?”

“Are the ones who I love going to help raise me from this foundation or utterly make fun of me?”

“Do I want to put myself in this position of potentially ruining my self-esteem for my one true passion?”

 

These fears creep into my mind as I finish pounding words of thought and deep emotion into my keyboard.

“I am not enough”

“Why am I a journalist? I can’t compete with others”

“Everyone hates my blog anyways”

“No one cares about what I have to say so why even try?”

 

I feel the tension, the exasperation of family, friends, and coworkers who subtly hint at me that they don’t care about my words or thoughts.  

 

“People hate seeing my stuff online”

“Stop writing, you are just a nuisance”

 

But as I sit in this aged chair with rain drops starting to make it’s appearance on the glossy office window, I slowly understand the magic behind the challenge.

“I am more than a girl who is anxious”

“I am a journalist”

“I am a blogger”

“I am me”

 

And as the rain begins to fall harder against the glass, the budding flower outside must learn to understand how glorious it will become with time.

Feature Excitement

For those who don’t know, I have been working at my local newspaper, the Town and Country, for two summers now.

Working here is an incredible opportunity and has shaped my desires for the future drastically (in a good way).

I have secretly loved journalism since I first took the course during my sophomore year in high school. I was lucky enough to get an internship here at the paper the summer going into my senior year.

Recently, I wrote a feature about a certified therapy dog named Ola who visits a local manor care facility here in town.

The link to the online version is here: http://www.upvnews.com/news/article.ashx?article=17822 

I hope you read and enjoy! 🙂

 

Afternoon Thunderstorms

I’ll be quite frank, I am a complete anxious mess when it comes to thunderstorms.

My fear or anxiety of thunderstorms doesn’t have a direct root, no childhood memory that drives this unreasonable feeling. (Maybe it is the loud thunder, who knows)

The anxiety flares as soon as I hear the weatherman say anything about a severe thunderstorm or that obnoxious beeping warning that appears on my phone, radio, or TV.

When storms arrive, my instincts are to hide under a blanket and watch shows I enjoy to take my mind off of the hell that is going outside my door.

Today, I couldn’t do that as I watched hail pound the ground through the big office window at work.

Eventually, the hail chunks turned into pouring rain that monstrous winds blew sideways.

I put my “big girl pants” on and dealt with it, kept working, and forced my anxiety down.

Seems silly, but I am proud of myself. Feels like a mini accomplishment for not letting my anxiety control my thoughts. 🙂

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Ran Out of Data? Don’t Panic

Quick thought- let me just say this – running out of data can actually make your life less stressful.

Yesterday afternoon, I ran out of data and I immediately became:

  1. Annoyed at myself for using that much data
  2. Panicked because I love my social media
  3. More annoyed because I could not use regular imessage or Spotify

Despite my initial response (plus me texting my stepdad asking for another half a gig so that I could survive), I have noticed how peaceful today has been.

No data means I haven’t been checking my phone every 2 minutes to refresh my Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat, or Twitter feed to see what everyone else was up to.

I have been more focused on work at the newspaper, along with contributing to my blog in my down time.

Not having data can actually be nice, it’s as if I have had a mini reality check.

Maybe you should run out of data too.

Braces and Dragonflies

Last Wednesday, one of my friends who I see once in a while messaged me on Facebook and my heart was so happy.

She had wanted me to know that she had gone to the dentist to discuss getting braces, but was worried about the financial aspect.

My friend was told that she would be getting braces on by the end of this month, but a dragonfly flew out in front of her and reminded her that getting the braces would be a great change.

I’ve been worried about the money and everything, but because of the dragonfly sighting I became more relaxed about the situation

I was so, so happy that she relayed this story to me and that she gave me permission to post this.

Please keep in mind that the universe sends us messages through these beautiful creatures.

For example, earlier today I received my scoring for my Advanced Placement Literature and Composition testing. I scored about average on the test, but not enough to earn college credit through Penn State.

At first, I was very bummed and disappointed in myself for not scoring higher. However, I thought about it and realized that I excelled in the class itself, there was no need to beat myself up emotionally and mentally over this situation.

A little after this, when I was outside with my dog, a dragonfly landed on a banister next to me and I calmed down.

I realized that I am enough and not doing perfect on a standardized testing does not fully captivate who I am.

Always keep an eye out for these special moments of reassurance in nature!

Blog Ideas?

Hello to all!

I wanted to write this quick post to see if anyone would like to give me ideas as to what  I should blog more about?

Please, comment on this post to share your ideas with me. Visit my contact page as well with questions or concerns.

Curious to see what you guys come up with!

Finding Your Passion

It’s no secret I love to write. I work for the local newspaper, run two separate blogs, and excel in my Journalism & English classes.

However, is writing my destiny? Maybe. Maybe not. I’m still trying to figure out my life purpose, but I do know that writing has become one of my biggest passions.

So, what is passion exactly?  According to Dictionary.com, passion is defined as;

Any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate

Passion is a feeling that overwhelms you, in a good way. Passion makes you want to pick that guitar or violin up and keep learning more notes. Passion is that drive to better your skills, all the while loving the process and results.

For me, writing is my passion because I love the thrill of sharing my thoughts in a creative way. Writing makes me feel confident and I sincerely enjoy the process of overcoming a writer’s block.

Finding your passion should not be a difficult or stressful journey. So, here are some of my suggestions to follow in order to find your passion:

  • Pay attention to what you find enjoyable, even the little things!
  • Don’t go looking for it, let it come to you
  • Listen to what your friends and family say about your talents
  • Passions can be anything, don’t worry if it is unpopular too
  • Think about what gets you excited, or the opposite

Throughout your journey, never give up with your passions