A Trip Down Memory Lane

On Saturday night, my cousin and his girlfriend were heading to a concert in Camden and asked if I could watch their new puppy, Coco.

Of course I was delighted, a whole night of puppy time. However, I got an unexpected surprise out of the visit.

My cousin and his girlfriend recently moved in to my grandparent’s old house. A house that I once lived in too, (for approximately one summer and month going into 5th grade.)

My parents at the time thought it was a great idea, having a big yard and in-ground pool. After some time though, with our old house still on the market and rough period adjusting to new schools and community, we moved back.

And while I was walking Coco through the big backyard that cool Saturday night, nostalgia hit me.

I remembered vividly going down the edge of the property where the creek sat when I was a kid, finding “cool” rocks, pretending to be damsel in distress, and trying to lure the outside cat Misty to the water.

I remembered the sound of the lightly flowing creek that now sits patiently still among the fallen tree limbs and overgrown plants at its edge.

The aged volleyball net and tether ball game we use to play on hot summer days, gone. All five fury kittens that Misty had and I loved dearly, gone.

However, despite the waves of nostalgia, I felt content with Coco prancing by my side.

This house always made me feel content in some way, – this was the house that my mother and her siblings grew up in, it was a house of memories and love.

I had not realized how much this property had changed over the past seven years, for I had not realized how much I have changed these past seven years.

In that moment I felt as old as this house. I felt all the old memories, the laughter and joy, the egg hunt activities on Easter, the hot summer days spent lounging in the pool – I felt it all.

As I sit here writing this post, I have exactly eleven days until move in and my unexpected gift that I didn’t know I needed was this trip down memory lane, one last time.

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Autumn, I Miss You

The past two mornings have been refreshing – cool and breezy – and it is torturing me.

Summer is thrilling as a kid, but after countless cycles of blistering heat followed by nasty thunderstorms,  I get sick of it. I am constantly sweating if I am not enclosed in an air-conditioned space and my hair is a frizzy disaster (girls may understand this more so). 😦

However, the past two mornings have felt more like fall/autumn weather, my absolute favorite season and I am beyond excited.

There are so many things that fall encompasses (just to name a few):

  1. Corn Mazes
  2. Halloween
  3. Pumpkin Patches
  4. Bonfires
  5. Football Season
  6. Sweaters
  7. Oversized scarves
  8. Pumpkin spice lattes
  9. Thanksgiving
  10. Rain boots

Not only that, but fall has always symbolized the start of something new or the turning of a leaf.

There is also something magical about a breezy autumn day, with sunshine breaking through an array of golden leafs, while wearing traditional blue jeans, and rain boots.

On those days, I tend to sit out back of my house with freshly brewed coffee and read my books or go outside and take thousands of pictures.

My question to you is, why do you love or enjoy fall? Let me know in the comments!

With that being said, I am so ready for fall to begin.

 

Dragonfly Spotting – June 10th

On Saturday while I was setting up for my graduation party on my dad’s side of the family, a big, black dragonfly buzzed around me and my graduation cake for a couple of minutes.

Having this dragonfly’s presence at that moment in time made me feel at peace. The dragonfly reminded me that I needed to understand the changes and transformation of myself and for those who surrounded me that day.

My graduation party was combined with my cousin Richie, who also is a part of the class of 2017. Richie and I are both moving into a whole new chapter. Opening our lives to newer and bigger things is daunting, especially for Richie, who will be entering boot camp soon.

Anxiety always creeps up on me when I start thinking about the future, situations with friends and family. The dragonfly that danced around me that day made me comfortable in the situation I was in, draining my anxiety from my mind, and simply allowing me to celebrate my accomplishment with an easy mind.

The change of graduating high school and moving on from all the familiarity that I call home and routine is numbing, yet thrilling at the same time. As long as my dragonflies appear when I need them, I will always keep reminding myself that change leads to an ultimate transformation that is necessary for the soul’s journey.

Your journey is everlasting, allow spiritual signs or symbols light the pathway of confusion, doubt, or anxiety. Clear your mind and look at the world with open eyes. 

 

 

Dragonfly Spotting – June 3rd

While my boyfriend and I were fishing today, I spotted so many dragonflies that danced around us and skimmed the water’s edge.

Knowing that it is summer and we were along the creek, spotting dragonflies wasn’t too surprising. What was surprising to me was the amount of dragonflies there were. Big, small, dark, bright, playful, and distant. All different and unique from one another.

The dragonflies immediately lifted my mood and made me appreciate the nature around us more, especially easing my mind of the monstrous tick season.

I normally only fish at my grandparents pond up north, so the time spent with my boyfriend today connected me to my childhood. I was light of heart and enjoyed reeling in the small fish with my love.

In this case, the abundance of dragonflies around my boyfriend and I while we fished at our favorite rock, a rock we like to go to when we want to get away from reality, showed me that the dragonflies symbolized the lightness of heart.

In case you didn’t know, dragonflies symbolize joy and lightness of being, a connection to nature’s spirits.

All those symbolize what I felt as I sat upon the rock of the creek, gazing into the shimmering water, dragonflies dancing around, with my best friend right next to me.

Dragonfly Spotting – June 1st

So, I spotted my second dragonfly of the summer yesterday afternoon. I saw it fly by when my mom and I were on our way to a dermatologist appointment. For anyone who knows me, I struggle with acne.

At the time, I got excited about seeing the dragonfly, but didn’t really understand the significance of it. During my dermatologist appointment, I was told that all my acne is hormonal and that there was nothing really that I could do. The best they could offer were two different creams, one for morning and night to help clear it up a little. I was super bummed out, but then the dermatologist said that I was qualified start a heavy prescription that could completely clear my skin from my severe acne.

The prescription sounded a little intense for me, so I immediately got anxious. However, the more time I had to calm down and to think about it, this could change my life. All of high school I have struggled with acne, my senior year being the worst yet.  Although I know this is just acne I am talking about, it is still a big step and I got nervous.

With that in mind, I came to the realization that my dragonfly spotting was a sign from the universe that I am ready for this change and that there is no need to be anxious.

So my friends, watch for those dragonflies and be willing to receive messages from the universe!

If you have a cool photo of a dragonfly, send it to my email (abigailcliff12@gmail.com) to be featured on my new page “Captured Moments” !

Poems – May 28th

For my final project in AP Literature, I had to create four poems that reflected important literary themes. I decided I wanted others to be able to read them for what they are, maybe connect, or simply giggle at my attempt to write poetry. So with that being said, enjoy, (or not).

  1. Weeping Willow

Willow planted her roots

Where seedlings stomped in their boots

Where whistling was the bird’s call

And people were free, after all

 

Willow began to sprout into a limber beauty

While the shaded ones were ridiculed

While the light ones were quite snooty

And people were free, not to be fooled

 

Willow adored the marshland

Indeed, adored all good and evil

Would never hurt a touching hand

And yearned to be one of the people

 

But as years went by, Willow began to understand

Why brightness was put first

Why darkness got the backhand

And why the universe starved with thirst

 

For, people were just afraid

Scared of uncertainty

So the maid will remain the maid

And Willow will weep as only a willow tree

2. The Blue Man

The Blue Man was the best of the best

Dominant, on a roll, could never be stopped

The Blue Man was logical, precise, and never late

Studious, on the ball, could never be topped

 

But the Blue man was indeed, blue

Bluer than the blue tinted car he drove

Bluer than the bluest star that shined at night

The bluest blueberry a bunny could find

 

The Blue Man wanted to be just like the Orange Man

 

The Orange man was just shy of being the worst of the worst

Lazy, care-free, always on the path of freedom

The Orange man was silly, fun, and always happy

A sense of thrill the Blue Man quenched for

 

The Orange Man was a joyous beam of light

More Orange than the ice cream dripping from the little girl’s cone

More Orange than the most tropical flower in a jungle

The most Orange orange a monkey could find

 

But, the Orange Man wanted to be just like the Blue Man.

 

And so, the battle poured on and on

Between the Blue and the Orange Man.

3. Ice Cream Parlor

“You know, she once use to be my partner on a hot and muggy day,

Especially on those evenings where we got hot fudge sundaes;

Or when the rain poured and we played indoors with dominoes

Oh, how I loved the way Meredith said I looked funny with my daddy’s nose”

 

“As birthdays turned into just another day,

As picking grass turned into smoking it,

As juice boxes turned into liquor cases,

The simple touch of her against me on sleeping bags as we lay

Began to slowly fade into a memory of nonexistent”

 

“My trips with Meredith came once in a blue moon,

No more trips to the nearby ice cream parlor,

And her moving on came all too soon”

 

“But tides turn, sand shifts, and leaves fall;

Nature doesn’t skip a beat over a dead ladybug,

So neither should I”

4. Sun and Moon

The sun was the mightiest star

Who lit up the world at the crack of dawn

The sun was the strongest by far

A goddess the people worshipped in the amazon

 

The sun brought beams of light to the cattle and crops

Made the beautiful plants and tree roots dig deep

Brightened the day as it dried rain drops

And allowed the shepherd’s sheep to leap

 

While the sun was praised for it’s importance,

No one knew the moon was more than a pretty sight

Thus the moon sat quietly under the sun’s dominance

For the sun rays were more important that the moonlight

 

No one knew the moon shifted the ocean tides,

Or that it helped their fear of the night,

And helped free slaves as a guide,

Or simply that it makes the earth spin simply right.

 

So the moon sat and waited,

As only the sun got congratulated

Thanks for getting all the way to here, hope you enjoyed 🙂 Remember to keep looking for those dragonflies!

Dragonfly Spotting – May 17th

I would like to start documenting each time I stumble across a dragonfly in my daily life. So, I thought, why not publish each entry onto my blog?

Seeing dragonflies is no coincidence, one only appears when it needs to show light in a situation or bring attention to an event.

May 17th, 2017: While I was on a quick nature walk with one of my close friends today, a big, beautiful dragonfly slowly buzzed passed us on the riverbank. I immediately grew ecstatic, for dragonfly spottings symbolize transformation or self-realization. The dragonfly came towards us a little after receiving good news from my friend, a case where good news means absolutely everything to them in a difficult time. The dragonfly confirmed that what they had shared with me will indeed lead to greater news and a deeper transformation of the soul.

If you or a loved one experiences the effect of the dragonfly, remember it is no coincidence that one appeared. Dragonflies serve as a spiritual message for people.

Thank you for reading and enjoy this beautiful day! (Watch out for ticks!)

I plan on writing an article very soon!