Dragonfly Spotting – June 23

Tomorrow I have my high school graduation party and I’m really excited, but also very stressed out. There is a lot going on around the house to get ready for the number of people coming. Cleaning, setting up, buying supplies – you know the drill.

Thank God I have my mom and step-dad doing the bulk of the heavy work, I would be lost without them, but I am helping out the best I can by running errands and assisting in any work needed.

To be quite frank, I am a true introvert – I value my alone time, peace, and quiet in order to recharge my energy. Today, I had to run a few errands, take my siblings to work and camp, going to the store, and helping around the house. By the time 3:30 P.M.  came around to pick up my sister, I was getting a little flustered. To me, it felt like I had been running around all day. Then I realized, my mom has been doing so much more the past week for this and she is doing all this preparing for me. Why was I being so off in my feelings?

On the way back from picking my sister up from camp, a dragonfly flew in front of my windshield and I knew that being mildly cranky this afternoon was a little dramatic. It hit me that I needed to reevaluate the situation I was mentally putting myself in and to take a step back.

I have so much good going on in my life and for it all to be blinded by my flustered feelings is nonsense. My advice to you is to also take a moment and reevaluate the situation you are in. Is it really that bad?

Dragonfly Spotting – Spin Class

June 22nd – This morning was one of those times when all you want to do is ignore your annoying alarm and cuddle back up in your sea of blankets for a couple more hours. My body was begging me to not get up, to stay a little longer in the comfort of my own bed, and to dream a little more.

I was planning on getting up to go to the 8:30 A.M. spin class at the YMCA, a class my family and I love to attend. Once my alarm went off at 7 A.M., I thought, “Do I really have to go?”

By the time 7:45 A.M. rolled around,  I knew it was get up now or you won’t make it. That’s when I jumped out of bed and starting rushing around my house in order to leave on time.

The class was tiring, yet got my blood pumping, sweat dripping, and mentally prepared for the day. Once I stepped outside, started walking towards my car, quads sore, I thought again, “Thank God I didn’t listen to my urge to stay in bed all day”.

Just then, a dragonfly buzzed around the cars and fluttered for a bit before it zipped off. I knew it was there to tell me I did the right thing, fighting off my urge to not better myself physically.

I decided to treat myself to a delicious protein shake at Tribe Nutrition for my hard-work. I always complain about my body image and today, I took another step in the right direction even when I didn’t want to at first.

My advice to you is to fight your inner doubt and do things that will make you uncomfortable. Just go for it and I promise you will not regret it.

 

Dragonfly Spotting – June 3rd

While my boyfriend and I were fishing today, I spotted so many dragonflies that danced around us and skimmed the water’s edge.

Knowing that it is summer and we were along the creek, spotting dragonflies wasn’t too surprising. What was surprising to me was the amount of dragonflies there were. Big, small, dark, bright, playful, and distant. All different and unique from one another.

The dragonflies immediately lifted my mood and made me appreciate the nature around us more, especially easing my mind of the monstrous tick season.

I normally only fish at my grandparents pond up north, so the time spent with my boyfriend today connected me to my childhood. I was light of heart and enjoyed reeling in the small fish with my love.

In this case, the abundance of dragonflies around my boyfriend and I while we fished at our favorite rock, a rock we like to go to when we want to get away from reality, showed me that the dragonflies symbolized the lightness of heart.

In case you didn’t know, dragonflies symbolize joy and lightness of being, a connection to nature’s spirits.

All those symbolize what I felt as I sat upon the rock of the creek, gazing into the shimmering water, dragonflies dancing around, with my best friend right next to me.

Dragonfly Spotting – June 1st

So, I spotted my second dragonfly of the summer yesterday afternoon. I saw it fly by when my mom and I were on our way to a dermatologist appointment. For anyone who knows me, I struggle with acne.

At the time, I got excited about seeing the dragonfly, but didn’t really understand the significance of it. During my dermatologist appointment, I was told that all my acne is hormonal and that there was nothing really that I could do. The best they could offer were two different creams, one for morning and night to help clear it up a little. I was super bummed out, but then the dermatologist said that I was qualified start a heavy prescription that could completely clear my skin from my severe acne.

The prescription sounded a little intense for me, so I immediately got anxious. However, the more time I had to calm down and to think about it, this could change my life. All of high school I have struggled with acne, my senior year being the worst yet.  Although I know this is just acne I am talking about, it is still a big step and I got nervous.

With that in mind, I came to the realization that my dragonfly spotting was a sign from the universe that I am ready for this change and that there is no need to be anxious.

So my friends, watch for those dragonflies and be willing to receive messages from the universe!

If you have a cool photo of a dragonfly, send it to my email (abigailcliff12@gmail.com) to be featured on my new page “Captured Moments” !

Advice For Your Transformation

Like one of my best friend’s said the other day, people really do change within four years. The idea of it is kinda scary, but it’s also empowering and motivational. Personally, I have changed tremendously throughout my four years of high school and I am so glad.

Within four years, I changed socially, physically, and mentally. I went through hard times and good times, challenges, and overcame obstacles. Within this post, I want to explore the different ways I’ve changed and give some advice as to how you can handle or appreciate similar experiences.

  • Socially – My friend group from middle school lost track of its course in the very first year of high school and man, did that really hit me hard. In the moment, I didn’t realize that  letting go of all I knew would lead me to a more extraordinary gift. moving on from my childhood friends led me to some of the most hilarious and compassionate people I know. The road to new friends wasn’t always easy. I lost and gained a few individuals along the way, for some reasons I do and do not regret. Life has a funny way of pointing you down the right path and sometimes it happens right under our nose. Changing socially was very rough at times and still not always pretty rainbows and flowers. I learned to forget past mistakes and currently still in the process of forgiving. One way I suggest to accept where you are now socially is to believe that you are never, ever alone. Things happen, but you are you and there is someone out there that is bound to love who you are. So, don’t give up and just try to reach out.
  • Physically – From freshman year, I have struggled with my body. I am still struggling, but in a different way. Even though I was never overweight, I was not as fit as I hoped to be either. My insecurity stayed with me all throughout high school and even now. My mentality changed when I started dating my boyfriend who, at the time, was in weight lifting competitions and on the football team. I started becoming more conscious of what I was putting into my body. Almost two years later, I have cut soda out of my diet, eating more fruits &veggies when snacking, eating lighter meals, and drinking lots of water. Watching my body get healthier makes me so happy. Although I am happy with my progress so far, I am still not where I want to be. My advice to anyone else struggling with themselves physically, is to just accept where you are. You are never going to get anything accomplished by just staring in that dusty mirror and picking yourself apart. Find the courage to start new exercise classes or simply find time to work everyday. Slowly work in healthier choices and don’t rush it all at once (you don’t want to burn yourself out).
  • Mentally – My parents went through a divorce in the beginning of my freshman year. The process was hard, but it was not the only big thing in my life. I found myself struggling with grades and not wanting to go to public places like the gym. Since then, I have become a straight A student who is in the National Honors Society, and now have become a more open person. Okay, I am not perfect. I do get bad grades occasionally, forget to study, judge others by accident, and get into petty arguments. But I have simply accepted my feelings and thoughts. My advice to you is to understand that your feelings are real, true, and validated. If you’re hurt, you’re hurt. Do not try to shield others away and try to get help when you need it. There is no shame in therapy or simple talk sessions with friends or family. However, never think there isn’t a way to change or fix your thoughts and feelings. I am currently working on this myself when it comes to anxious feelings and thoughts. Just never give up and know you are not alone.

Accepting who you are can be difficult, but know that time can heal and help you overcome any obstacle presented.

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Poems – May 28th

For my final project in AP Literature, I had to create four poems that reflected important literary themes. I decided I wanted others to be able to read them for what they are, maybe connect, or simply giggle at my attempt to write poetry. So with that being said, enjoy, (or not).

  1. Weeping Willow

Willow planted her roots

Where seedlings stomped in their boots

Where whistling was the bird’s call

And people were free, after all

 

Willow began to sprout into a limber beauty

While the shaded ones were ridiculed

While the light ones were quite snooty

And people were free, not to be fooled

 

Willow adored the marshland

Indeed, adored all good and evil

Would never hurt a touching hand

And yearned to be one of the people

 

But as years went by, Willow began to understand

Why brightness was put first

Why darkness got the backhand

And why the universe starved with thirst

 

For, people were just afraid

Scared of uncertainty

So the maid will remain the maid

And Willow will weep as only a willow tree

2. The Blue Man

The Blue Man was the best of the best

Dominant, on a roll, could never be stopped

The Blue Man was logical, precise, and never late

Studious, on the ball, could never be topped

 

But the Blue man was indeed, blue

Bluer than the blue tinted car he drove

Bluer than the bluest star that shined at night

The bluest blueberry a bunny could find

 

The Blue Man wanted to be just like the Orange Man

 

The Orange man was just shy of being the worst of the worst

Lazy, care-free, always on the path of freedom

The Orange man was silly, fun, and always happy

A sense of thrill the Blue Man quenched for

 

The Orange Man was a joyous beam of light

More Orange than the ice cream dripping from the little girl’s cone

More Orange than the most tropical flower in a jungle

The most Orange orange a monkey could find

 

But, the Orange Man wanted to be just like the Blue Man.

 

And so, the battle poured on and on

Between the Blue and the Orange Man.

3. Ice Cream Parlor

“You know, she once use to be my partner on a hot and muggy day,

Especially on those evenings where we got hot fudge sundaes;

Or when the rain poured and we played indoors with dominoes

Oh, how I loved the way Meredith said I looked funny with my daddy’s nose”

 

“As birthdays turned into just another day,

As picking grass turned into smoking it,

As juice boxes turned into liquor cases,

The simple touch of her against me on sleeping bags as we lay

Began to slowly fade into a memory of nonexistent”

 

“My trips with Meredith came once in a blue moon,

No more trips to the nearby ice cream parlor,

And her moving on came all too soon”

 

“But tides turn, sand shifts, and leaves fall;

Nature doesn’t skip a beat over a dead ladybug,

So neither should I”

4. Sun and Moon

The sun was the mightiest star

Who lit up the world at the crack of dawn

The sun was the strongest by far

A goddess the people worshipped in the amazon

 

The sun brought beams of light to the cattle and crops

Made the beautiful plants and tree roots dig deep

Brightened the day as it dried rain drops

And allowed the shepherd’s sheep to leap

 

While the sun was praised for it’s importance,

No one knew the moon was more than a pretty sight

Thus the moon sat quietly under the sun’s dominance

For the sun rays were more important that the moonlight

 

No one knew the moon shifted the ocean tides,

Or that it helped their fear of the night,

And helped free slaves as a guide,

Or simply that it makes the earth spin simply right.

 

So the moon sat and waited,

As only the sun got congratulated

Thanks for getting all the way to here, hope you enjoyed 🙂 Remember to keep looking for those dragonflies!

Dragonfly Spotting – May 17th

I would like to start documenting each time I stumble across a dragonfly in my daily life. So, I thought, why not publish each entry onto my blog?

Seeing dragonflies is no coincidence, one only appears when it needs to show light in a situation or bring attention to an event.

May 17th, 2017: While I was on a quick nature walk with one of my close friends today, a big, beautiful dragonfly slowly buzzed passed us on the riverbank. I immediately grew ecstatic, for dragonfly spottings symbolize transformation or self-realization. The dragonfly came towards us a little after receiving good news from my friend, a case where good news means absolutely everything to them in a difficult time. The dragonfly confirmed that what they had shared with me will indeed lead to greater news and a deeper transformation of the soul.

If you or a loved one experiences the effect of the dragonfly, remember it is no coincidence that one appeared. Dragonflies serve as a spiritual message for people.

Thank you for reading and enjoy this beautiful day! (Watch out for ticks!)

I plan on writing an article very soon!

Energy Vampires

When I first created this blog, I was not aware of the stressful and worrisome events that were at the brink of my horizon.  One event led to another – school, work, friends and family problems, college decision-making, – and so much more simply knocked me off course, something I refer to as being under the influence of “energy vampires”. I finally realized I had lost the time, passion, and energy to do what I love most – writing.

I finally broke through my so-called “funk” after reading an article that made me think, “Why have I stopped doing this? Why am I letting so much effect my lifestyle?”. I dedicated tonight to sit down, take the necessary time to revamp my blog’s appearance and to conjure up the ability to type up this post. Even though I am physically tired from today while writing this, I honestly haven’t felt more at peace in a very long time.

Writing opens doors to where I can express my emotions and/or thoughts to people without the anxiety of physically being in their presence. This blog always allowed me to clear my mind, while simultaneously allowing people to connect or share my way of life.

I got so caught up in every little thing the past couple of months, that I allowed my energy to be drained enough to no longer do what I love. When I think about “Energy Vampires”, I personally am talking about anything, living or not, that sucks the energy out of your motivation and commitment. This could be your job, a friend, family member, boss, girlfriend/boyfriend, school, college, – anything that keeps you from continuing your passions or hobbies. It’s common, but I have learned that you cannot let these things stop you from living your life.

Always remember there is an alternate path that can lead you to happiness. Do not be afraid to let go of someone or something, especially when it is in your best interest. Being afraid to stand up for yourself or make that change in lifestyle is your number one enemy. Honestly, just do itChange your career. Go back to college. Tell your coworker how you honestly feel. Tryout for that elite sports team. Drop that immature friend. Do not feel guilty for doing what is best for you.

Be like the dragonfly and make the change !

Treating Yourself

So, I wanted to write this short blog post on the topic of “Treating Yourself”. I feel as if everyone gets so wrapped up in making other people happy or content, especially parents (of course), that we forget what it is like to actually treat ourselves to what we enjoy. Just yesterday, I decided to go get a gel manicure, order a new journal, and schedule a hair appointment. News flash, I’ve never felt better. 

With being so busy all the time, running here and running there, I forgot what it was like to treat myself to the things I genuinely enjoy. Granted, the things I planned for did cost me money. However, my newly trimmed hair will last me months and my new journal for reporting will last me a long time too. So, with that being said, I think everyone should take this next holiday-filled week to reflect on what makes you happy and do it.  Want to take some time and pick up the newest book you’ve been dying to read? Do it. Feel like you’ve gone too long without your favorite makeup product? Go shopping. Been anxious to purchase that new video game? Buy it.

I am not saying money leads to happiness, but sometimes it is necessary to take the time and money to invest in yourself for once. If you are a hardworking student, coworker, boss, etc., you deserve to “Treat Yo’self” as Donna and Tom would say on Parks and Recreation (great tv show btw).

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