I am going to be super real and honest with this post – lately I have been struggling emotionally with the thought of growing up and going to college.
I know, this is normal thoughts and feelings of a recently turned 18 year old. However, this has been effecting my family as well.
My mother and I have been having conflicts – emotions clashing with high tension pouring out from our words – this is something we are not use to and do not want three weeks before I leave.
We have always been very open with each other, how we are feeling and why.
For both of us, this new chapter of independence/freedom is straining our relationship, but it is okay. This is needed, for this change is inevitable and we needed to work out our feelings.
After a couple days of not bringing up the topic, we talked.
We talked, expressed our fears/wishes, and we were okay.
After, I left to go to my friend’s graduation party, I saw something that confirmed my beliefs.
Two big, yellow butterflies were flying together across the road while I was stopped at a stop sign.
For those who don’t know, yellow butterflies symbolize emotional growth, as well as, moving through cycle of life and personality.
We are going to be okay and college is going to be exactly what I need.